What We Should Be Doing

I should be happy     it's as simple as that

but instead I find   myself   filled with fear
I've wanted what I thought I've wanted for years
to get back to that place   (though it's no location
just a figment of my fragmented imagination)

I can't have what doesn't exist

I know you had hope   lost it   got it back
and I'd feel like an even bigger ass to steal it again
but I just can't think of any other alternative
(What     this working?)

I can't hide my pessimistic optimism
I feel like shit now     but it'll all fix itself somehow   (maybe)

I should be happy     it's as simple as that

But I can't fight the fear     of having the fear
of losing someone     (just give up)

I know I'd fucking ruin it     (Fuck   that bitch did it
she fucking ruined me)     it's as simple as that